Call Me Trixie

When last we left our genderfluid heroine, she had just finished a busy Friday and her internal clock only let her sleep for approximately five hours before she got up for a fun filled Saturday. So, yeah, I was pretty tired Saturday morning. Since it was going to be a long day, I wanted to make sure I was fully confident in how I felt and looked. I started off with what I call the three S's (shower, shave and...well, you know). I then got dressed in my designated outfit for the day: black and white striped leggings, black and white striped long sleeve shirt, Uzumaki T-shirt, my black jacket with white broken hearts and pink trim (would've been perfect had Bret Hart been there), and my military style goth boots with a skull holding a rose in its mouth. Now, it was supposed to be capped off by a white wig with black undertones to go along with the goth makeup I wanted to use. Then, disaster struck. I decided not to test the makeup before my trip and just go in blind. It was a cre...

Hello, my loves. I hope you all had a wonderful weekend! If you've been following along, you know that I was super busy the last few days. As such, I'm breaking up my trip report into a couple of different posts. Things actually started for me on Thursday night. I decided to paint my nails for the first time. Obviously, for a first try, things didn't go perfectly. Still, it went well enough and I was satisfied with the results. I went with a basic black nail polish and I absolutely loved applying it. The only issue: I'd forgotten to buy nail polish remover. So, for all the mistakes I'd created over each of my fingers, I had to use rubbing alcohol with q tips. It worked well enough but was still somewhat of a pain. Friday started off with my mother and I going to Willow's school play. She had the very important part of "Sailer 1" and she did fantastic with her one line! The play in general was super cute and enjoyable as they mostly did rock songs throu...

Hello, my loves. Just a quick one today as I'm on my weekend trip. I'll be in the NYC area for GCW Dream On and AEW Full Gear tomorrow. Should be awesome! If you happen to see a cute goth girl (as I'll be identifying as Trixie all weekend) with an Uzumaki T-shirt, come say Hi! In fact, I'd like to try something: if you read this blog and happen to see me out and about this weekend, say this to me: "The woods are lovely, dark, and deep. And I have promises to keep. Miles to go before I sleep." Yes, that's the line spoken in Death Proof. I'm SUCH a Tarantino mark lol. Anyway, I hope you all enjoy your weekend, my loves! I'll be back with you in full on Monday. -Trixie 😘 ❤️ 

Some people may not realize this but there's differences between men and women. Revolutionary thinking, I know. Obviously, you can look at a man and a woman and see the skin deep differences. I'm specifically talking about their thought processes. Case in point: packing for a trip. Whenever I'm going on a trip as my masculine self, it's a fairly quick, straightforward process. I take one bag for clothes, another bag for my toiletries and I usually don't pack until the morning I'm leaving. Well, with my first trip as Trixie tomorrow, that process has completely changed. All of you girls will understand why. Not only do I need my usual toiletries (toothbrush, toothpaste, hairbrush, etc) but I also need my makeup kit, makeup remover, my styling brush, an outfit for each day, an extra pair of shoes to coordinate better with certain outfits, winter boots in case it snows, a winter coat, a lighter jacket in case it gets nicer, my purse with travel style makeup items, ...

"We have met the enemy and he is us." -Walt Kelly This saying has never been more accurate than when I look at myself in the mirror. Yes, I've lost a ton of weight. Yes, I can fit into smaller sizes than I could before. Yes, I even FEEL a lot healthier. But, whenever I look at myself, I still see the 330 pound me staring back. Every fold, every roll, every ripple, every dimple. It all just reminds me of the worst times of my body's health. Deep down, I know it's all mental. When I can turn off the anxiety and negativity, I can see where I do look better. My stomach has definitely shrunk (if I can get through doctor to let me get rid of this excess skin next year, that'll definitely help). I don't have so much neck fat. My face looks skinnier. My shoulders have more muscle tone to them. But then other days...it all just comes back to me. You have to understand: I was over 300 pounds for a good 6-7 years. When you see yourself a certain way for so long, you ...

While it's easier than ever to watch a pro wrestling show, it's becoming more and more difficult to afford to go to a mainline show. Griffin and I were fortunate enough to go to both nights of WrestleMania 40 last year. It was a splurge but it wasn't anything overly exorbitant. We still got the nosebleed seats just to save enough to enjoy that entire weekend. We mention to each other constantly how happy we are that we went when we did. If we tried to go to a WWE major show now, for the same exact seat placement, we'd probably have to pay more than double what we did just last year (thanks TKO). The sad part is that most major entertainment ventures do this: profits over fans. However, they'll continue to increase prices because there are still fans willing to pay these huge amounts for tickets. I bring up WWE though because they've been so blatant about it. Their CEO actually mentioned how the WWE's previous owner kept prices with family in mind but that cu...