Jumping Out of the Pool

I came to a decision the other day. One that involves my involvement with online dating.

So, I had been using a couple of dating apps since early September at least. The one I deleted about a month later. The other I've kept since then and have been paying for gold tier (I hate it when they limit you on what you can see, say, or do. So I just pay for every feature).

Well, with a lack of success and being tired of paying for it, I've decided that I'm deleting the other dating app as well. My subscription for it runs out this Friday, which is when I'll be deleting it. 

So, if you're interested in finding me or shooting your shot, you only have three more days online lol.

Granted, things went super well with my date on Saturday but this isn't necessarily about her. We could end up in a relationship. It could all fall apart tomorrow. That's just the risk you take in putting yourself out there.

Yes, I've gained lots of attention from people on there but it hasn't always been the right kind of attention. It's been out of staters, old guys, fuck boys, and the worst: old, out of state fuck boys.

I've been flattered that so many find me attractive but they mostly want me just as a notch on their belt or to act out some weird kink in which I'm not interested.

There's also been tons of interest from couples looking for an addition to their polycule. Once again, it's something about which I've been curious but I'm not comfortable jumping into a situation like that. Too many chances for something to go wrong or someone to get hurt. 

I know that polyamorous relationships can work and I'm not denying that. All I'm saying is that such a situation isn't for me. I'm monogamous and selfish when it comes to my love.

It also annoys me that people can't seem to carry on a conversation anymore. They'll reach out to me, I'll ask them to tell me about themselves and they'll all either say something like "what do you want to know" or like what exactly." Bitch, you came to me with your profile saying you were looking for a relationship. If we can't get to know each other then why bother reaching out to me? Unless they were only looking for a hookup anyway.

Just be honest and consistent. That's all I'm saying.

Anyway, I'm at the point where I'm over the idea of putting myself out there. So, even if things don't work out with my date and I or if nobody else comes into my life before I delete the app, I'm still taking a break from dating.

Being cute and desired by so many people gets exhausting. How do the social media influencers handle this stuff?









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